Pretty Part

When you feel so down it seems impossible to get back up. You feel crushed and hurt. When you realize... You don't want to get up. That would only mean getting crushed back down again, in a viscous cycle that you'll never win. No one can see you and your'e all alone, no one will help you, but only watch and stare as you struggle to get up. They can't tell you need help. Even with you screaming at them your words do nothing, they're a waist of your valuable and limited breath. Getting frustrated and ready to give up as they keep watching. Unaware to them of what's really going on. In your head you KNOW, but it's only a matter of time before again realizing. They really DON'T understand. You've played the part so perfectly they won't believe your struggle. You've shown that you will always get up and keep going, that nothing could ever bring you down. You try again, tears in your eyes, that something's wrong... they don't listen. What could you do? If you get up they'll never believe anything WAS wrong. Maybe if you stay down, just maybe someone, anyone will wonder why you're STILL down and NOT getting up.Maybe they'll help you. Then again, what if they do wonder, but they just don't care? They'll just leave you. SO you get up, and return to the cycle. Back where you started. NOW they see you, NOW they know you're there. They don't ASK where you were, but instead TELL you where they've been. They can't even tell the difference in your voice, how small your smile, or even the redness in your eyes. So you let it go, once again. You take a deep breath and suddenly its all gone, you're up and ready to face it all over again.....